Monthly Archives: September 2013
Will it ever end?
Back to square one. I drank last night. I was hosting a dinner party and a friend was bringing an author. An author whose books I love. I was in a shitty mood. Had a row with the gf just … Continue reading
My joining the 100 day sober challenge, Belle’s comment on my last post, the fact that – as promised – I emailed her this morning to say I’m sober, all indicate the smallest change in my behaviour. I have been … Continue reading
Gulp. Just sent Belle the pledge “I will not drink for 100 days. No matter what. I can cry, but I will not drink. I can go to bed or go home early. I might feel distressed … but I … Continue reading
Half a bottle of red and a lot of late night pattern browsing on Ravelry last night. I am literally in two minds. The ordinary everyday me wants to continue as usual. Drinking a bit too much, lurching from one … Continue reading
A different conversation in my head last night. I was regretting the fact that I couldn’t drink. Nice that I was starting to accept the non-drinking. But then of course the ‘why nots’ started up. I went to the corner … Continue reading
Gf has been given the all clear. We celebrated with wine. Delicious fruity white wine. I really wish I didn’t find the taste of it so delectable.