Monthly Archives: September 2013

Day one again. And again. And again.

Will it ever end?

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Slipped.

Back to square one. I drank last night. I was hosting a dinner party and a friend was bringing an author.  An author whose books I love. I was in a shitty mood.  Had a row with the gf just … Continue reading

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Not so secret?

My joining the 100 day sober challenge, Belle’s comment on my last post, the fact that – as promised – I emailed her this morning to say I’m sober, all indicate the smallest change in my behaviour. I have been … Continue reading

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I pressed send

Gulp.  Just sent Belle the pledge “I will not drink for 100 days.  No matter what.  I can cry, but I will not drink.  I can go to bed or go home early. I might feel distressed … but I … Continue reading

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Will

Half a bottle of red and a lot of late night pattern browsing on Ravelry last night. I am literally in two minds.  The ordinary everyday me wants to continue as usual. Drinking a bit too much, lurching from one … Continue reading

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At the bottom again

A different conversation in my head last night.  I was regretting the fact that I couldn’t drink.  Nice that I was starting to accept the non-drinking.  But then of course the ‘why nots’ started up. I went to the corner … Continue reading

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It was nothing

Gf has been given the all clear. We celebrated with wine.  Delicious fruity white wine. I really wish I didn’t find the taste of it so delectable.

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